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There's always this light bulb that suddenly turns on, like, *FLASH*... With the *ding* and all. Maybe we've been blaming the wrong person... Maybe we've been fooled by the same person, but made it seem like it was coming from everywhere...
It'll always hurt when it hits you in the face. You'll remember the action, more than the pain itself, and from then on, you just don't get it. You keep trying, but you always get pushed down. You get up, and you stumble some more. Always that way, isn't it? You face so many disappointments, people don't understand what you're going through, they give off fake sympathy, they just act around you... There's no more sincerity in their words anymore... No meaning... And even if they do mean what they say... No one believes them anymore... 'Cause it's too late to undo what damage has been caused, and not even words can fix it, sometimes...
What we all want is to be happy and content with what we have. With what we want, we lose focus of what we already have... But we always ask for more. There's no limit to what we want. And in the end, it'll destroy us. It'll cause us unnecessary pain, hurt, suffering, misunderstanding... Is that what we really want...?
I want to give up on what I want, on a personal level. I really do. And I think it's not a very hard thing to do. Sometimes, you just have to accept what's done is done... You can't change what has already been set. Just like how you can't control when the Sun rises, or when you lose somebody... It's not fair, it never is. But that's just the way it is... You can't change what's been laid out for you, you're just human. Nothing in this world should change because you say so. It goes according to what He says. And what He says, goes.
And all I had was the memory of what was, so let's pretend it never mattered to us...